Updates

Mike is settling into his new major wonderfully and he had a chance the other day to map out his schedule until graduation and it looks like he will be DONE in 2 years! Yay! So Fall of 2010 Mike will be graduating with his BFA and minor in art education. I am so proud that he is going for it and was so blessed to be able to just slide into the program. It confirms to me that this is defiantly the right path for us and we just have to work hard and everything will work out.

Lilly is doing MARVELOUS without her binky. She's only asked for it a few times, and each time she caught herself and reminded herself that she gave it to the cashier. So there's no going back now, although the cashier did sneak them back to me. (they are in my dresser). Last night was an incredibly difficult night (we all have colds) and Lilly was up from 2:00 until 5:00 I was so tempted to just give in, but I didn't and we made it through. Mike was a sweetie this morning and let me sleep in too. Even though he was up every 4 hours taking Benadryl. We had to rush Mike to the ER yesterday. He started a new antibiotic that he had never taken before and had a really bad reaction, his throat started closing off, he was wheezing and hives. Luckily I had him take some Benadryl as soon as he started having symptoms of an allergy and he was ok.

Potty training is starting back up and so far Lilly is doing pretty good with the pee in the potty, but hasn't done the other yet. We are starting the no more diapers rule this week and I am sure it will be full of many accidents, but well worth it. I have figured out that Lilly can't just slowly step by step do something. It's either all or nothing, so we just have to go cold turkey with the diapers just like the binky.

We updated all of our adoption paperwork (it's been a year) and are still anxiously awaiting some good news. Lilly is so ready to be a big sister, she LOVES babies and always prays for a new brother or sister. I also am ready for a new little one. I was telling Mike I am kind of sad about Lilly growing up, she's my baby and she's getting so big, I don't have a new baby to cuddle and change and spoil yet. I defiantly feel like something is missing in my heart and I long to fill the tiny spaces with love for my children. Lilly does add so, so, so much to my life but I really want her to have the chance to be a sister and to feel that special connection that siblings have. It's different this time around. When we were waiting for Lilly to come into our lives I wanted a baby, I wanted to grow our family, I wanted to be a mother. This time around my wants are a lot more complex. I still want a baby and to grow our family, but it's not all about my wants anymore it's more about what my family needs. I take pure joy in being a mother and I love seeing Lilly develop into a beautiful, unique individual, I can hardly wait to see what personality of our next child will be like and how it will change and add to our family.